I walked through a haunted house with a few fifth graders yesterday. And it reminded me of writing. Or more specifically, it reminded me of what lives in my head as a writer.
When I'm away from writing for a while, and then I have that thought, that "maybe I should open up my novel's word document", well, something jumps out at me. Something dressed in fluorescent paint, a ghoulish mask, and blood-red fingernails. Something wielding an ax. Something that chops up my desire to revise, and scares the hell out of me. You know. The "what-if-I'm-not-good" monster. And sometimes I listen to her, and stay away from my revision. Which only makes her bigger and scarier the next time she jumps out at me.
For some reason, when I'm knee-deep in writing, I can keep the ghoul away. But if I even take a weekend off, she rears her ugly head.
But, yesterday I got to the other side of the haunted house, and I got to the other side of that *B* in my head too.
And you know what I always find when I wrestle her down so I can get back into my revision? Some parts of my novel are great, and some aren't. But the story gets better, stronger, tighter, filled with more tension and depth of character as I revise. Revision is nothing to be afraid about.
How's everyone doing this week? My goal is to revise for at least an hour every day. To continue revising until Nano, and then see if I can do both. (What--am I insane?)
What goals do you have? Do you NaNo?
Happy ghoul hunting to you all! I hope you are wrestling your writing demons DOWN this week!!