There is a Quote by Neil Gaiman.
If you have had a Serious Writing Conversation with me, I have probably attempted to tell you about it. Neil says:
Well, you never achieve everything you wanted to. It's the simple act of writing. You begin with a platonic ideal that is a shivering tower carved out of pure diamond, that is this pure thing that stands there unfouled by gravity and the weather. And then, the thing that you build is this thing that you have to build out of whatever is at hand and you use empty sushi boxes and chairs and get friends to hold it up and try to make it look like it's standing. And at the end of it, people look at it and they say, "It's amazing." And you say, "Yes, but if only I could have done the thing that is in my head."
I am acutely aware of how awesome my writing and ideas are--in my head. The fact that there is a huge discrepancy between how they are inside, rolling about my head, and how they are outside, in black and white, causes me some angst.
Some very intelligent writers recently have been telling me that it is okay to feel this way.
But this gap is painful.
And sometimes it is hard to get over.
Sometimes the gap is wide because our skill hasn't caught up with our potential.
Sometimes the gap is wide because we imagine the universe.
Sometimes the gap is wide because we want to hurry up and be done.
No matter why the gap is there, we must mind it.
And that is hard.